9Jul/10

I was wrong. The best way to release and increase the kingdom wasn’t through a better system or open source curriculum or even people doing the ‘stuff’. This statement seems rather ridiculous when it is written out, but it was an all to real realization the other night when I had one of the craziest encounters with His consuming, furious love.
I had talked myself out of going to the prophetic conference in town, for all the ‘right’ reasons, “...we just got back from ministering in Nicaragua, I’m tired and need to rest...” etc.. So I decided, because of the subtle hints of my friend Holy Spirit, that I should go. Sometimes we need to act in the opposite spirit than that of which we are.
We arrived at the dry lake bed with parched people doing the ‘normal’ horizontal watering of their proverbial soil... it was rough. I needed more, and pushed in again, by dancing then lying on the floor to receive all He was making available... it was good, but nothing near what was about to happen.
Heidi Baker, in her tender way, declared she was going to do something different, which really isn’t that different for her. She said that the alters are open and we were going to press in to God and give Jesus a drink. This was all my friend an I needed. So along with all the chapped-lipped Christians desperate for something else, we ran up and dove face down at the apostle’s feet. For most of the duration of her message, she laid hands on my friend and I, as she soaked, prayed, preached and poured out her heart to heaven. I felt the throngs of His love physically flowing through me as I lay there face down, it was incredible, but still nothing compared to what happened next.
I think the Spirit was telling me, “Servants beg face down, but lovers lie on their back!” So I turned over and lay on my back, the whole time Heidi was laying hands on my head and chest intermittently. It ‘physically’ felt like I went from the experience of God touching me, to having Him enter me. Like another level of His love.
There is more! There is more of His love than we can imagine or dream about.
With this new encounter came the an overwhelming thought,
“I don’t ever want to leave!”
... and I mean ever... I decided I was going to hold onto this moment forever, no matter what. Well that was the beginning of the longest incoherent, trance-like state I had ever been in up until that moment. For 24hrs I couldn’t walk without staggering around and falling down. I could barely open my eyes or speak without laughing spontaneously. I was reminded of the biblical references where Peter said, “These men are not drunk as you suppose!” and when Paul said to the Ephesians, “Do not be drunk on wine but be filled with the Holy Spirit.” My friend and I were filled, and we were drunk, drunk, drunk in His intoxicating love. It was completely marvelous and yet this was only a hint of what is available.
It wasn’t till the next day in a very controlled church service that I began to sober up. It was a pity. We spent the better part of 24hrs on our backs or crawling around under the weight of His presence. This isn’t a new thing. The biblical and revivalist fathers of old experienced this all the time. It was said of Smith Wigglesworth that he could bring the anointing so strong that most people couldn’t stay in the same building under the weight of God’s presence. A physical weight, they could feel baring down on their bodies.
The point is there is more love for us hidden in God, than we can imagine or dream of. There is always more and there is always higher. The metaphor for this increase seems incredulous to me considering the salvation theology that says His presence comes to live in us. So what is this ‘more’ and why have psalmists and worship writers for generations penned the echo of our hearts over and over again? How can we have more of the ‘all’ that lives in us? Could it be that we don’t really see ‘all’ of what we have; that we don’t comprehend the height, depth and breadth of He who is in us? That somehow, we need to see more, comprehend more and experience more of Him who lives in us. And then what?
When we experience intimate, heart-to-heart, deep love we can’t help but love. It reduces the fist commandment to an overflow of the love that we already experience in our hearts. We become agents of His love, reflecting Him in the communities we live in. All over the world the agents of love are being released and are changing the world as more and more people experience the mystery of the kingdom. Love is contagious and cancerous (yes I am using this work on purpose), especially cancerous to the works of the enemy and the gates of hell which can not prevail against it.
“We love, because He first loved us.” [NASB] 1 John 4:11
The bible says you can’t love without being loved by God. I didn’t write that, it is in the word... so that means that any love we are experiencing today is a run off or an overflow of love experienced by someone who at one point was connected to God.
The word ‘Theophany’ from the Ancient Greek Θεοφάνεια - Τheophaneia(meaning "appearance of God"), refers to the appearance of a deity to a human, or to a divine disclosure.
“Let me give you a new command: Love one another. In the same way I loved you, you love one another. This is how everyone will recognize that you are my disciples—when they see the love you have for each other.” [MSG] John 13:34-35
7Jul/10
Well it is time to tell of all that God has done in the last few months and to declare a renewed vision for the future. Remember when you hear this testimony that the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy! This means the very testimony you hear of Jesus touching some else's life has the power in it to do it again. So take this testimony as a prophesy for your situation.
Several years ago, while attending a Bethel Church service, Pastor Bill was moved by the Spirit to have us all pray for those who were having financial struggles. Well we had moved there to attend BSSM and were completely strapped financially having used up whatever cash we had and all of our credit. So we were in desperate need of some prayer and money. As my friend layed hands on me to pray for our situation I had a vision of people putting money into my hands, then the vision changed and I saw people pinning money on my back, then the vision changed again and I was standing in front of the mail box collecting a check that would pay off our debt. This was exactly what I needed to encourage me. Well right after he was done praying people started putting money in my hands while I was standing there. Then later that month I got a job working for Loving On Purpose, right at the point where had no money left, it was amazing.
Now I knew that the first two parts of the vision had come true, money donations were coming in and I was getting money for my labor. I longed to see the third part come true, but nothing. My wife started seeing the numbers 555 frequently. The number 5 means grace and Bill had an encounter where the Lord showed him that the cancellation of debt was upon us and the number was 555. So every time we saw that number we claimed it as the cancellation of debt for us. It was crazy how often we saw it. I mean ridiculous. I would see the number, reach out my hand and claim the promise as ours. Well Kris Vallotton says the word you hear the most often can be a sign of the resistance you will face before you see that promise come to pass. This was a real test for our faith, especially when we felt financially strapped after going to Nicaragua and reducing our salary to only 6% of what I was making when I was working as a video game project manager. God was faithful and provided all the way. There were times in Nicaragua in the middle of the month, when all we had was a bag of oatmeal on the shelf and people came, without knowing and paid to feed us for 3 days, etc. It was truly amazing! Always there, always at the last moment, God came through. However the debt was always there as a nagging temptation not to believe God as the creditors kept calling.
The external pressure to not believe the faithfulness of God to fulfill the promise was intense and just last month it came to a head with a creditor when they threatened legal action. All sorts of questions come to mind like, did we hear God right, were we foolish in giving it all up to follow what we felt God was telling us to do, am I being an irresponsible father, etc etc. It was rough, but no matter what we felt, experienced or perceived we kept reminding each other that the God who answered our prayers in the past is the same God who will answer our promises in the future and that He is more than capable to do what He said He would do. Then in the middle of last month, a couple we know sold their house and gave us check of $20K to pay off our debt. PRAISE GOD! He is faithful to fulfill all that He promises.